Amout Pour Amour

canon in D

2009-06-19T19:32:00.002+08:00

canon in D。
谁也不会陌生，
我与她有缘。
所以我的博客就暂时只有这首音乐。

她所要表达的意境，还是留给我们自己慢慢体会~~
（whisper: i played it before ^_^ .
with Joshua Ang, he played the piano accomanied me 。
unforgetable experience. )

untitle

2009-06-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

FT/DBIT/1b/21 在这个班，
我认识了很多新的朋友，
不单单是21班，
其他的班也交到了不少的朋友。
我们打台球，看电影，做project，CIP
有了不少的快乐时光。(cip不算）
所以呢，朋友们，
不要为我担心哦~我活的旺旺的！！（好像有点自做多情）

开学已经7个礼拜了，
好快，一晃就过去了2个月。
说实在的，我没学到什么，
可以说我就这么混过去了，
又虚度了2个月的人生。

现在属于假期的第二个礼拜，
其实一共才三个礼拜，
但第二个礼拜马上就要结束了。
一开学就要考试测验等等（啊压力啊压力）
我还没开始学呢！！

我有时候也有点看不惯我自己，
怎么这么没有自制力呢？
不知道自学吗？

人生何止短暂，

尽把光阴虚度，

唯有仰天长啸恨自己，

迷恋花花世界难割舍。

I am Reborn

2009-06-19T18:10:00.003+08:00

不知道为什么，
又一次心血来潮，
在我的博客里面留下，
我人生中的一个脚印。

不要问我为什么
关闭博客这么久，
不要问我为什么
又开始写博客，
不要问我为什么
与音乐有缘无份，
不要问我为什么
没有去初级学院，
不要问我为什么
选择了SP/FT/DBIT/1b/21.

这么多为什么，
我懒得解答。
人生中有着这么多的无奈，
让我无法选择。
明明喜欢做的事情，
却违背良心的说不喜欢。

我感觉我又长大了，成熟了。
说白了就是老了。
看待事物，又有了新的见解。

2009

2009-01-01T02:08:00.002+08:00

happy new year to everyone.^-^
new year, new start, new sch, new frens,
new band, new music, new life, new wish,

but 还是被过去的回忆.........

无聊~

2008-12-30T20:06:00.001+08:00

没有了工作，我真的不知道该干什么。
是不是该继续回去工作呢？
现在的我又困又累又郁闷，更无聊。
感觉很空虚。

i am crazy

2008-12-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

at this moment of time.
i am really mad.
didnt have time to update for quite long period of time.
i break my record. i had worked for 30 hours.
and only had 3 hours of rest... super mad and tired.

after all. the problem is that i cant even find the objective
why i work. why i work so hard. for???????

no title

2008-12-13T11:55:00.001+08:00

喜欢不能伪装
过去只能原谅
快乐不能假装
瞬间和永远一样

梦

2008-12-12T10:40:00.002+08:00

无意中，又做了一个梦。算是一个美梦。
但却很不现实的梦，好希望梦是真的，
但梦却往往是反的。

我现在才发现我越来越麻木了。
也许我就是以工作为接口，来麻木自己。
拖着疲惫的身躯回家，忘却了一切。
只想休息....

5dec2008

2008-12-05T18:36:00.003+08:00

today, i was just 10 meter away from PM lee Hsian long.(forget how to spell his name)
he looks older in real person than on TV.
i plan to go back to china around 15 to 20 of Jan. just after i register my JC.
as JC no time to rest. i will not going school for about 3 weekks time.
(i wan celebrate CNY in my own home, with my relatives. miss them so much)
so now i work really hard, wish to buy a present for all my cousins. haha

who has any idea for the present? i dun know what should i buy.o_O

13 hour of work

2008-12-03T11:11:00.002+08:00

i am super mad and tired.
i had been worked in holiday inn for 13 hour non stop.
its super tired for me. i only get back home at 5 am.
lucky tomorrow. actually is today, i have no work.
yeah, i can sleep........zzzzzZZZZ

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

2008-12-02T00:24:00.003+08:00

another day of tiring work is over.
today me charles and yangjing go to meritus mandrain work.
its kind of super tired for me.
but for charles, he work as bar man.(in future also i think)
that's much easier than a food server like me.
yangjing, dun know manager send him where. but comfrim easier than me.
they all first time.

now more and more people join me as waiter in hotel.
charles, yangjing, junda,junyong. there might be more!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sammy, i hope that $$$$$$ = everything.
but $$$$$ is only = most of the thing o_O

work work

2008-11-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

today's work very lucky.
not only easy to do(2 people for 3 table)
i also got red pocket $10from the boss.(wedding dinner)
haha. this job as a waiter is tired sometime.
but i like it. so far i earned $300 alr.
muhahahaha.................

29 nov

2008-11-29T11:12:00.003+08:00

only now, 29nov. my internet is working.
6days no internet to use. it make me crazy
and super sian.

actually i have alot of things want to write
but after so long. alot of things had forgotten.

class chalet. i gave her the gift that i bought for her last time,
dun know whether she like it or not.
i know she dun likes me. but since it is for her. i will not give to
someone else. ya its for her.
thank YC for the helps. 我悄悄的离开，正如我悄悄的来临......

one more thing is that in chalet. i found true friendship. i bet zhenwei
too. 患难见真情.....

after chalet, we went back, but i saw her again in Mac. nothing much to say.
看着她头也不回的走了。我只能默默的看着她的背影，安慰自己说我已经不喜欢她了。

放手

2008-11-29T11:08:00.002+08:00

唯一令我心动的女孩子
但不是属于我的
心痛，失落，但于事无补
她心中也许有其他人也说不定
懦夫的行为，我走开，放手
不知道时间是否可以淡化我对她的敬慕

21 nov 2008

2008-11-22T01:33:00.004+08:00

the prom night, certainly will be unforgetable memories for me.
i really need thank joshua for accompany me all the way after olevel , for practising,
we even made a major mistake in school, haha. but we are still good friend, hope have another
chance to perform with him.

i can't sleep for this moment.
Actually i had spent alot of money on it.(didn't tell my parents)
but i feel that everything is worth it.
alot of friends will leave me, this probably will be the last few chance
to see them. i wish i can go poly. but my parents die die dun allow me.
my learning journey still have a long way to go. but i need someone there
with me. really.
this moment of time, i think of her, i think of my future.
sometimes i hate to think so much.
just can not control it.
maybe i need work and work and work to make me tired and stop think about all these.
whether it is useful? i have no idea. maybe , naturally everything will be fine one day.
why still bother so much.
that's me. this make me think of my old nick Mr郁闷。
now i am really 郁闷ing

勇气

2008-11-22T01:17:00.003+08:00

由始至终，我还是没有勇气。
由始至终，我还是只能默默的看着她。
我很笨，也很没有用。
自认什么都不怕，可是还是缺少了最不该缺少的“勇气”。
只能看折她默默的离开。也许我们跟不是一个世界的人，
或许根本就不配，不可能。
悔恨自己，却也于事无补。
就让这4年的记忆随着时间慢慢淡化吧。
说真的，我不想这么做，我只希望尽快能找的属于我的那份勇气。
去追求我的那份...

辗转年面的一夜

2008-11-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

对我来说明天是个大日子。
之所以这样，我才无法睡眠。
也许兴奋，也许担心。
我总觉得我缺乏一些勇气去向她表白。
表演的自信我一直都用，
可是我怎么也找不到那份勇气。
神啊！请辞给我勇气吧！

总的来说，我希望明天一切都顺顺利利。
在我中学生涯，完美的划上句点。
同时，也不能残留半点遗憾。
我不希望带着藏在心里的秘密，随着时间而消逝。
那样是痛苦的~~

Prom

2008-11-20T17:39:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is prom. today me and joshua practise like siao.
more than 4 hours of practices .non-stop. tired, finger painful. haiz.
but all our effect is worth it. i believe i will show you
the best of me,
the best of music.

Another first time

2008-11-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

today i first time buy a cloth for myself.
(i will be wearing for prom night)
i feel that i grow up abit more.
slow, i feel that i can handle everything by myself.
of course need friends help sometimes.
seriously, growing up is good,
on the other hand, i am facing alot of troubles.
dun know where should i go.
迷茫迷茫迷茫迷茫迷茫迷茫迷茫迷茫

No title

2008-11-18T09:17:00.003+08:00

dun know why i am so tired everyday .
yet i cant sleep well. always wake up very early.
today will be another busy day for me.
need search some music to perform, and change the key of the score
get it printed blabla....
buy a shirt for me to wear during prom night.
haha, maybe got chio bu go with me^_^.

The furthest distance in the world （ i found english version of the poem!!^_^great)

2008-11-16T00:36:00.001+08:00

The furthest distance in the world

Is not between life and death

But when I stand in front of you

Yet you don't know that I love you.

The furthest distance in the world

is not when I stand in front of you

Yet you can't see my love

But when undoubtedly knowing the love

From both

Yet cannot be together.

The furthest distance in the world

Is not being apart while being in love

But when I plainly cannot resist the yearning

Yet pretending you have never been in my heart.

The furthest distance in the world

Is not struggling against the tides

But using one's indifferent heart

To dig an uncrossable river

For the one who loves you.

My pain

2008-11-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

now is like 0:33.
i cant sleep , althought i am tired.
my feet is so painful that keeps me awake.
that's a tiring job. but i can still take it.
i wont give up easily.
maybe after this holiday, i will be more fit and strong.
to protect the person and the things that i loved.

世界上最遥远的距离（列夫托尔斯泰）

2008-11-16T00:27:00.003+08:00

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自已冷漠的心对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
读后感：我非常喜欢这首诗，这首诗就描写了我此时的心情。

Moving house

2008-11-12T21:59:00.002+08:00

i will be moving house from toapayoh to seng kang.
living in toapayoh for 3 years. now must move. haiz.
no choice.freinds in Toapayoh, soon will say good bye to u all.

if anyone plan to go to NYJC, we may be classmate again.
because i will go NYJC,99% sure about it.
haha( finding house is really difficult. i wish i can buy a house here^_^)

O level is over.

2008-11-12T14:58:00.002+08:00

finally, o level is over, LETS burn the text books.
but, i still have no plan what am i going to do for this 2 months.

i need to find a new house to live, because i am not going to live in ToaPayoh anymore.
(contract is over) anyway, i will change school after 4 years in beatty.
i had moved house 6 times in 6 years of time in singapore.
IT IS MOST TROUBLESOME THING i think.

i need to find a job also, earn money. hehe.

and i am glad that so many people around me are supporting me . thank you very much.
hope we still have chance to see each other next year after getting our olevel results.

一切随缘

My new blog

2008-11-10T18:01:00.002+08:00

Finally. My blog is going to complete.
ya, and welcome!!

2008-11-10T12:48:00.003+08:00

so many things that bother me. after exam.
1.moving house.
2.band BBQ
3.class chalet
4.prom

soon 4e4 will separate.
but i will miss 4e4. definitely

Second time

2008-11-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

i will try my best to write in accurate english language.
ya, start from today!
any errors. i will be happy to change it if you point out to me.

First time

2008-11-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

please forgive me using chinese to write my blog.
because is it first time.^_^
不知道什么原因。我有了这闲工夫写blog.
说实话，我一直有着闲工夫。
但是就是没有行动（懒惰吗？)

这也算是我人生中的第一次。
但我保证不是最后一次~~